Did you ever think that you would be attacked at one of your strongest points? This is one of your heart’s best qualities. This is where life revolves around you. This is where God wants you to be and serve. This is what you live for! Then suddenly, the foundation that you were building life on, is swept away…
When is Jesus not with me? Do I see myself in an up is good, and down is bad relationship? If I sin is Jesus not with me? I was wanting to do good. Did I want to be good and do good? Is Jesus always with me? As Christians we often live a confused life. We see Jesus in the high points of life when we feel we are blessed because something special has just happened or is happening in my life! But, a few days later, I may feel that God has abandoned me because something hurtful or tragic has happened or is happening. So… Where did Jesus go? This is what happened to me. I couldn’t believe it. I felt betrayed, How could this happen? Where was God? Does He really care?
One of my strongest points is caring for people, especially young people who are in that age of deciding what life is all about and how to live life in ways that leads to a successful life that matches who they were created to be. However, for decades I didn’t realize that I was sabotaging myself by not maturing relationally. I was a child attempting to lead children. I could talk and show them rules, but I wasn’t mature enough to live a mature parent life around and with them. As with most children, I felt that I was the exception to all the rules. I was a physical adult with a child’s relational maturity.
Our enemy wants to destroy us or at a minimum neutralize us as soon as possible. He attempted to kill Jesus right after He was born. Moses right after he was born. As many of the pre-born as he can. For most of us he tries to kill or neutralize who we are really created to be as a relationally mature adult. He has succeeded in this for the greater majority of our society. I sabotage myself when I participate in any of his schemes and trickery. And I am neutralized when I do not continue to mature relationally and walk in the full life that Jesus has for me as a relationally mature parent and elder.
Just so you know, It is never too late to mature. I have and I am in my 70s!!