How did I mature relationally? This has been a long and often scary and painful journey for me. It has not been quick and easy. I am going to share with you some key individual steps that freed me to be able to mature from an infant and child to a parent and elder. No, I’m not there yet, but I can see the maturity traits emerging from the life struggles. This meditation is number 1 in a series.
So, here is number 1; My reality was shaken and had to shift. I had lived for 60 plus years believing that my beliefs and ways were correct. I was successful from the worlds point of view and I operated from my reality. It was all correct and maybe I needed to add something to it to make my reality stronger. At least I knew the correct ways because I had degrees to back it up. I had the correct reality. I knew the rules and the law and my mom reinforced them by laying the law down to me when I was young. Then, one day the sky started falling in. I had a very reputable source tell me that we all operate in a false reality that isn’t all true. We make it up.
I was a Christian because I kept God’s laws, at least most of them. We just need better and stronger rules and I as a man needed to make sure I “helped” God enforce them by pointing out the flaws in others, especially those close to me. After all, didn’t Jesus come to point out our flaws? naaa …. that doesn’t seem right. But, as a relationally mature child, I couldn’t see past the laws ….. It made relationships miserable, especially for others…
If I gave up the law I would have no control over you and that was a scary thing… and what would my role with God be then??? But, since the sky was falling ….. NOW WHAT ????
Quick Check; Do you see one of my false realities in the above narrative?